The week the queen died. It’s a bit like losing a parent, she’s been such a constant.
The disabled people I support for work are disturbed by it. They all spend a lot of time alone watching free-to-air television. They are at least annoyed by the wall to wall coverage. But two schizophrenic people are genuinely grieving, trapped with the TVs triggering it.
They are sensitive to what an anchor she has been. They feel the loss, and it seems to connect to so much else they have lost.
Internationally the grief seems to be similar, she’s a marker and connector to so much that has passed.
But here in Hebrews 12 we have the reminder that the saints are all there in heaven watching like a crowd at the Olympic Games, cheering us on to run our race unimpeded by sin as God planned: learning from Christ’s love and sacrifice to work tirelessly for God’s kingdom of peace and justice. Rahab and Jepthah are there. Plus the queen, plus mum and dad.
And even if those images were just our memories or just narratives of them, which I don’t believe they merely are. But even if they were, they would still be a powerful encouragement, and comfort in our loss. Our identity, our provenance.
It’s a frame in which to endure hardship, by remembering them, and thinking of it as discipline that strengthened them.
The author returns to the choice Moses presented to the Israelites as they looked over the border of promised land between the mountain of blessings and the mountain of curses. Who will they serve? When everything is going wrong, I might be fooled into thinking I’m on the mountain of curses.
But my hardship for Christ’s name is like the wilderness years. They lead to mount Zion; to blessing not curses. And to reject it would be to reject God’s grace.
Maybe my hardship at the moment involves batting down my feelings of frustration at being stuck being a mere support worker, and my sense of burnout at church. Maybe it’s taking greater care of Kelly and the kids. Maybe there are whole new paths out there that I could be open to. The choices are more about the spirit and the fruit than the specific path.
Great chapter, interesting thoughts. And today I have a day off with Kelly, and a drive to visit our friend Lisa up the coast. Yippee!
Praying for family, and as I have got in the habit before every shift, for wisdom and love.