David returning to some of the themes that come back again and again. His need for salvation, his agony, his tears.
Asking How long? How long?
His turmoil goes all night.. both the bed and the couch are soaked with tears, nice detail.
Calling on God’s loving, saving, nature, rather than David’s deservedness. Calling on God’s pragmatism – ‘I’m no use to you dead am I?
Starting with his anguish, ending anticipating his enemy’s anguish: going full circle, but also taking us on a journey. Honest and artful at the same time. Well, he did have all night to work on the song…
I’m oddly troubled too, can’t get into gear at work. I should just do the job applications and get them out of the way, they are distracting me.
One job is more demanding, a management position of a national team, another is unclear a project coordination job. Maybe less my bag, but I have to go for it. It would be ironic if I was a chaser upper, a deadlines guy…
Confusing mixture of wanting, needing, not sure about. It would be a much higher level of commitment, though I’m one of those people that never feel like a hot shot, so I’m always insecure about these things until I do them. Argh!
Pray that I can be calm and sensible, not over think things, trust God.
I was so restless that I kept being annoyed yesterday if I could only find written articles, not videos, about things I was researching, because I couldn’t settle to read. Needed to be hypnotised by sight and sound or my brain wouldn’t stop jumping around.
Sounds like David and I are both stuck in loops. I’d still rather be me from the sound of it.
And oh the infinite patience required to be God. Hearing the same prayers day in day out, the same repentances, the same errors, the same lacks of self insight. Dear oh dear! Well I’ll try and sort my little emotional eddy, I can do it.